Nothing's Figured Out
For the last seven days I've been riding high. The entire transformation sort of hit me during the Knopfler concert and the draining self-pity of the last fourteen months that passed like one long freaking day, seemed to melt away.
I told a buddy that the remedy for the malaise is to see a genius perform once a week. Pretty sure I'd get tired of that too, though.
Yet that is the true kicker. I haven't figured anything out. I'm still going to work, watching the Yankees, facing difficult, difficult, trying situations - I'm going to the hospital tomorrow as my mother faces surgery - but there's a new understanding of sorts.
I suppose that I've accepted that life just blows, but that you don't have to wallow in the sad, sad, sad. I have faith that my mother will be fine.
Still faith...still so hopeful.
Many of my thoughts through the past seven days has been about maintaining the calm.
Here's a prediction - I won't.
Yet the cocksure, I can whip the world attitude, is gone.
I haven't figured anything out yet, but I'm going to ride the wave.
Any geniuses out there coming to Buffalo?
I told a buddy that the remedy for the malaise is to see a genius perform once a week. Pretty sure I'd get tired of that too, though.
Yet that is the true kicker. I haven't figured anything out. I'm still going to work, watching the Yankees, facing difficult, difficult, trying situations - I'm going to the hospital tomorrow as my mother faces surgery - but there's a new understanding of sorts.
I suppose that I've accepted that life just blows, but that you don't have to wallow in the sad, sad, sad. I have faith that my mother will be fine.
Still faith...still so hopeful.
Many of my thoughts through the past seven days has been about maintaining the calm.
Here's a prediction - I won't.
Yet the cocksure, I can whip the world attitude, is gone.
I haven't figured anything out yet, but I'm going to ride the wave.
Any geniuses out there coming to Buffalo?
Comments
I like your attitude: life just blows, but still faithful and hopeful. What else is there?
My entire day consisted of the question WHY - streaming through my brain, flashing neon. Guess what? Still no answer. Just maintaining the calm... for now.